Conscience Living

Yesterday and this morning I've been giving a lot of thought to the act of conscience living. I've been going over things in my mind, trying to identify exactly what it means to me and focus on moments instead of letting life go by in a blur. I've also tried to identify life defining moments. Of course there are plenty that readily come to mind, but what about all the other moments that have sculpted and molded me over the years? These little nuances of time are fleeting but leave an impression that has the power to permanently alter our perceptions and beliefs. Interactions with people that change who you are.

Perhaps I'm more sentimental than other people, but because so very few people in my life have actually really taken the time to actually know me, I tend to always hold those people in my heart even long after I've lost contact with them. The few people I've talked to about this have not shared this sentiment so I'm not sure if this is an uncommon thing to do, or I just haven't met other people who share this trait. I've gotten the impression time and time again that most people take people that they love, or who love them, for granted. I don't understand why that is. I'm guilty of this myself, but I try to avoid it.

Life is such a transient state that to not hold on to what is beautiful and good seems a tragedy. I do not want to go through life with words left unsaid because I never took the time to say them, or experiences unnoticed because I never took the time to really experience them. I don't think anyone wants to arrive at the grave and realize they've missed the whole point and be resigned to regret, or settle for the fact that they just didn't and be "ok". Wouldn't that just be self deception?

I feel that it is my duty to myself to notice and appreciate everything that I can in life, no matter how small or seemingly trivial simply because it is a part of life and this is the only chance I will get.